The First Blog... Not a lot about boys though.

Today was a revolutionary day for me. I am at home on the computer, my 2 year old son taking a nap, my 5 year old son visiting grandma and grandpa, and hit a moment of peace. In times of peace at my house, which are hard to come by, I like to talk with God. In our conversation today, my heart was struck with pain and tragedy, not for myself but for another voice, a voice that no one hears, the unborn baby. As a strong conservative and Christ following woman, I have always been pro-life. But today compelled with these feelings, I was drawn to watch something I have never seen before, a little film from the eighties called 'The Silent Scream'. In the first five minutes the Dr. gives a speech on how and what instruments will be used to preform this act. Barely able to proceed to the next part of the film, nearly paralyzed in my living room on my couch staring at a scene that is more gruesome than any I've seen in my life, I continue watching, almost unwillingly. The view from my seat was horrific, terrible and sad. They warned me before watching... Warning, this film contains graphic and disturbing images... But nothing could have prepared me for that.

At the end, my tears dripping to my pant legs, my eyes burning, and heart broken, I can do nothing. Nothing but pray. I found myself calling out to God, apologizing as if I could stand in the gap for those who committed these crimes against innocent life. Next I found myself comforted, by Him. I then prayed for God to forgive them, to heal the women who have chosen to end a life before it could even begin. The kind of healing that can only come from Him.

I imagine He already has.

Something has to be done about the abortion pandemic. Where do we go from here? Groups meet, walk-a-thons are done, prayers go up. But In the eighties the daily average for abortions was 4,000... that's per day. Where are we now? Nearly 3 decades later. No better, but much worse.

Motivated to do something, I will stand and holler for these silent screams, maybe they will hear me instead?